I don't really know what I'm going to do with my life and I've got that choice paralysis. Senior year is upon me and the time has come to choose a direction. So from what I can see, these are my options:
0) Do nothing/ do whatever (aka the easiest and most profitable option, or you know, whatever. Believe in the heart of the cards!)
Happiness and fulfillment is a journey, not a destination. My life directly after graduating won't dictate the entire rest of my life. Seriously, chill the fuck out, me.Okay here comes the hard part. Addressing the myriad possibilities post-graduation.
Counterpoint- You will probably want stability in your adult life. That means a final decision at some point. Also, just doing whatever isn't necessarily helpful towards achieving goals and being the person you want to be. You'll be alive, probably, but what else will you be? Have a little ambition for Pete's sake.
Countercounterpoint- Doing many things and picking your favorite is a pretty good strategy in general. Anneal yo' life, bro.
Counter{3}point- Many options in life take time. Years. And you only have so many. Do you really want to try everything? It takes like ten years of hard work to become and expert in anything. YOU'RE ONLY GETTING OLDER, BUB.
1) Go to grad school. Probably I would go for AI or some shit, but I don't actually know what that really means.
If you want to do something great, probably you will need some schooling to do it. You could be a code monkey for the rest of your days, but will it get you to the top of Maslow's hierarchy?2) Get a job. As a software developer this would be easy and bring in the fat stacks. (Note that I have an offer already, so I can be cavalier)
Counterpoint- Counterpoints are manifold.
1) Grad school is an investment of years and years of your life and you don't even really know what you want to go for. You're dumb.
2) Who needs greatness to be happy?
3) Like the tip of Maslow's hierarchy is a place you can actually get. Like Maslow's hierarchy is even a real thing. Screw you.
Countercounterpoints-
1) How do you know what you want to do until you do it?
2) Um, you? Maybe?
You need to get some kind of money-generator sometime. And software development is perfect for a talentless fuck such as yourself.3) Run away.
Counterpoint- What if being a dev isn't what you want to do for the rest of your life?
Countercounterpoint- Oh, I'm sorry a fun job and lots of money isn't good enough for you. Fuck you.
Perfect for not having any money or any lasting relationships. This is obviously the best plan.It's probably not a coincidence that my current plan is all of these. ie Run away, go work, and then maybe grad school.
4) Surprise bonus option: become a crack whore
Just kidding. Never be a crack whore. Do literally anything but that and your life goal of never being a crack whore will be met. Do not disappoint me, Future Me.
Dear Demiasian,
ReplyDeleteI read your musings on your future life (and life in general, including its meaning) with great interest. I did feel the dramatic tension throughout, but I still enjoyed it a lot – I hope you won’t find me cruel for that.
As always, you were brief but thorough. So I don’t have much to add – except for a single, but probably relevant point. Which is as follows:
You are NOT talentless. In fact, you are far from being one. You are quite the opposite. OK, just to be on the safe side, let me spoonfeed this to you: you are talented.
I’m not sure what talent is, but believe me: I know a talented person when I see one. (And I see quite a lot of people... and not too many talented ones.)
So, whatever you do with your life, please find a place for yourself where you can be creative.
I hope you can excuse me for the intrusion.
AnonymousUser1641
Thank you for reading my blog, Mystery Writer! Not to worry, what you may perceive to a lack of confidence or skewed perspective is merely that good old-fashioned self-depreciating Midwestern charm and a skewed perspective.
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